It is hard to believe that 4 years of college passed so quickly. There were so many memories made, friends met, concepts learned. And it is hard to say good-bye to all of that. It helped that I had things like packing and picnics to distract me from the sadness of saying adios to a great chapter of life.

I missed that last week of classes as I was attending GoWeek 2011 where I met my wonderful team for the first time and learned a lot about this thing called MPD (Ministry Partner Development) which I will spend my summer doing. I loved the environment—I was surrounded by people who were passionate about seeing God glorified in all nations of the earth. I was filled with a sense of affirmation that I had chosen the right path to follow after graduation.

Graduation was a time of great joy and celebration and sorrow. It was a blur. Time went so quickly as I spent every waking moment with beloved friends and family. I am truly blessed!!

And now, 3 days later, I am home. The place where I grew up, closer to family that I have not seen in months. I have spent these days unpacking. Why do I have so much junk? I am throwing a lot away and selling a lot at a garage sale. Jesus did say sell everything and follow Him.

As I have been cleaning, I came across papers from way back when in high school. I found this poem I wrote in youth group one Wednesday evening. I think it fits perfectly with where I am in life right now. It is a conversation between me and God…

Hi

Hi, God

Why are you so blue?

Didn’t you hear? I’m a sinner...

So?

I do bad things, think horrible thoughts, tell lies

Your point is?

Why don’t you care that I do all of these things?

Do you really want me to?

Can’t you give me time out? So that I can heal the pain?

It’s already done. It’s already paid for!

WHAT? Why don’t I feel any better about it?

Do you care?

Yes.

…enough to take my hand?

Yes!

…and jump?

Where?

…and fly?

How?

So many questions. Can you not just trust me?

Is it that easy?

I’m just waiting. Knock when you are ready.

How do I know when I’m ready?

God?

Aren’t you there?

*knock knock*

Yes? How can I help you?

I think I’m ready now.

Take my hand when you are ready.

Ok? Ready? We’re going to go now.

No questions?

No, I thought you wanted my plain dedication

Yeah, I do.